my humble life story

Aku suka melihat langit, Melihat pokok pokok, Melihat laut; Sambil ditemankan angin yang sepoi bahasa. Pada ketika itu, aku teringat tentang kita, Jiwa aku menjadi tenang, Fikiran aku menjadi lapang; Tenang seperti waktu kita bersama, berdua, bergelak ketawa, mata bertemu mata, hati mengetahui hati. Cuma kita, dan ketenangan yang kita cipta. Saat itu, aku tahu, kau juga ketenangan ku. - anishamizah

Hi, assalammualaikum semua! Memandangkan dah habis diploma ni, eloklah aku perkenalkan bidang yang aku dah belajar ni 😁 Okay so tengok tajuk pun dah tahu kan nama bidang aku hehe. Oh kalau diploma and korang ambik uitm, tempatnya memang di Penang. SERIOUS SERONOK GAIS, SAMBIL BELAJAR KORANG BOLEH TRAVEL!! Cuma satulah, janganlah bercinta dengan orang utara kalau korang ni orang selatan ok sis cakap berdasarkan pengalaman ☺ Nanti kalau nak sambung degree pulak kat puncak alam. Ha cari lah partner time degree ya 😚 Basically, korang akan banyak dalam lab ye sebab "makmal perubatan" and banyak kendalikan mesin sebab "teknologi". Subject yang akan dipelajari mainly pasal human. YES AKU AMBIK BIDANG NI SEBAB NAK LARI DARI PLANTS AND MATHS. Tapi maths ada lah gak sikit, simple maths je so okay lah untuk yang nak lari dari nombor tu 😉 Tapi takleh lari dari chemistry HAHAHA. Not bad lah subject chemical pathology. Ada subject transfusion medicine jugak, subject ni b...

Rumour has it. You — who barely know me, who never see me or even speak to me — believe the rumours. You don't deserve to know me like that. You don't deserve to look down at me. You just don't deserve anything when it comes to judging people you don't know. Finally i lost, lost with people's judgemental. After i endured it for so long — so long. I feel like i was drowning, trying to gasp for air, trying to reach out for something, trying to call for some help. Even though i know how to swim, how to make my body float. I just failed to do so. This time, I want someone who's willingly jump into the water and safe me. Pulling me up slowly to the shore, help me to gain my consciousness. By that time, I will thank you for your boldness And i will thank Allah for giving me another chance to live — by giving someone i need. After that you knew, You only need The Almighty Allah if you want to seek any help because He is The Giver of Peace ...

Early March 2018 which was my back-to-college day, i felt so happy bcs I reunited back with my friends and of course; my dearest housemates 💕 The excitement extended bcs finally, i can meet with my boyfriend (which is now my ex — obviously) Unfortunately, my excitement didn't stay long enough as we always fought — always, even if it's just a small matter. Day by day, I realized; you've changed. Suddenly there's no more — i love you so much — at the end of our conversations, There's no more — take care baby — to bid our goodbyes, There's no more long phone calls, No more sweet emojis, No more sweet nicknames. Just you, Ignoring my chats. Bluetick-ing my conversations. Treat me like options. Early July, we broke up. Apart again, and never had the feelings to get back. He also found his new love, im happy if he's happy 😊 I write this today bcs i feel like writing after so long phew. Why about ex? Bcs when i read back my blog, it's ...

Hello everyone!  I just finished my class and fuh tired 😐 Then macam biasalah balik bilik rehat jap. Waktu rehat tu aku srcroll lah twitter, then i read this : I can say, this thing is true. Sebab, masa sem 1. Aku rasa, aku dah jumpa orang tu (InsyaAllah) Masa sem 1, serious aku kata ibadah aku lebih. Like setiap hari lepas solat, aku baca Qur'an, then buat solat sunat qabliah, ba'diah, dhuha, tahajud. Kadang kadang kalau ada masa lebih sikit aku baca ma'thurat or majmu'an. Ikut sem jugak kot sebab sem 1 aku ada 4 subjek final je hehehe Tapi nak cakap lah yang waktu sem 1 aku banyak lah jugak cari Allah compare yang sekarang ni (Allahu 😢) Even aku banyak buat ibadah, tapi pemakaian aku masih tak sempurna. Tudung still atas dada, baju ketat sikit (sikit je tak banyak tauuu), anak tudung kekadang tak pakai kalau nak turun kafe beli makanan or waktu riadah petang, selalu carut (mama selalu ingatkan supaya kurangkan carut sebab perempuan...

aku tak pernah rasa kena marah macam ni. aku tak pernah rasa kena hina macam ni. aku tak pernah sangka semua perkataan tu keluar dari mulut kau sendiri. mungkin. kau tengah marah, serabut, sedih, kecewa. semua ada. sebab tu kau keluarkan saja kata kata tu semua. waktu kau keluarkan kata kata tu, aku terkejut. jari aku semuanya sejuk. setengah jam. sejuk tak hilang hilang. aku pun penat. penat dengan diri aku ni. aku pun pernah terfikir "kalau aku mati, mesti dah takda siapa rasa terbeban" aku pernah alami kemurungan yang berpanjangan - depression aku taknak kena lagi. aku pernah kelar tangan aku sebab stressed. aku taknak buat lagi. maafkan aku, jika kau rasa aku tak pernah memahami kau. maafkan aku, jika kau rasa aku selalu sakitkan hati kau. maafkan aku, jika kau rasa aku tak patut ada disisi kau. maafkan aku maafkan aku maafkan aku. kerana tiada apa yang mampu aku mohon selain maafkan aku 😔

Assalammualaikum and hi guys! Today i just want to share with you guys about my experiences in Perkampungan Orang Asli 😱 Here are some pictures to enjoy!  Morning view along the way to meet Orang Asli! ☁ Upon arriving, ingatkan dah sampai 😦, tapi kena jalan kat satu lorong kiri kanan pokok. Naik bukit laktu!! PANCIT 💨 Finally, we assembled at the tadika and yknow the tadika is so smol 😐 yup the population of orang asli were not that much. HA PASTU BANYAK GILA ANJING KAT PERKAMPUNGAN ORANG ASLI TU!!! Alhamdulillah dorang jenis tak liar kot sebab tak attack kitorang en and most of the orang asli is muslim but not so muslim? i hope you guys understand what i want to convey actually huhu Tapi sebab anjing jugak lah my new phone retak 💔 I was so shocked when a dog just popped out of nowhere in front of me!! 😱 So yeah thats how my shitty day started. The question is, why are we here????? TO COLLECT ORANG ASLI'S SHIT. Not that shit curse,, it ...