my humble life story

Kopi yang kau hulurkan itu gelap, aku tidak tahu kopi itu pahit atau manis, kau hanya memberi, dan aku hanya menerima, Lalu aku hirup — pahit, aku terhenti seketika dan melihat wajah kau, manis, kali ini, aku terus hirup kopi itu sambil memandang wajah kau, tetap manis, Saat itu aku tahu, kopi yang pahit bisa terasa manis, jika aku hirup bersama dengan kau. - anis hamizah

It was 2019 since the last I wrote? — phew It's already 2023, and here I am, still single; since 2018. Nothing new. Nope, don't get me wrong.  I'm happy single, truly. Am I? I honestly don't know. All I know is just — I have to show up everyday. That's all. I mean I'm still truly grateful for the people who were there where I kinda not myself,  where I kinda feel lost,  where I kinda feel I just want to disappear,  but those people made me remember that life is worth living. Thank you so much. It's hard for me to say these things to you guys verbally, bcs uhhhh you know im not that kind of person sksksk  but I pray for you guys everyday so that you get the happiness that you guys deserved, seriously. Thank you for accepting me as your child, Thank you for accepting me as your friend, Thank you for accepting me as your company. Truly, anis hamizah

Aku suka melihat langit, Melihat pokok pokok, Melihat laut; Sambil ditemankan angin yang sepoi bahasa. Pada ketika itu, aku teringat tentang kita, Jiwa aku menjadi tenang, Fikiran aku menjadi lapang; Tenang seperti waktu kita bersama, berdua, bergelak ketawa, mata bertemu mata, hati mengetahui hati. Cuma kita, dan ketenangan yang kita cipta. Saat itu, aku tahu, kau juga ketenangan ku. - anishamizah

Hi, assalammualaikum semua! Memandangkan dah habis diploma ni, eloklah aku perkenalkan bidang yang aku dah belajar ni 😁 Okay so tengok tajuk pun dah tahu kan nama bidang aku hehe. Oh kalau diploma and korang ambik uitm, tempatnya memang di Penang. SERIOUS SERONOK GAIS, SAMBIL BELAJAR KORANG BOLEH TRAVEL!! Cuma satulah, janganlah bercinta dengan orang utara kalau korang ni orang selatan ok sis cakap berdasarkan pengalaman ☺ Nanti kalau nak sambung degree pulak kat puncak alam. Ha cari lah partner time degree ya 😚 Basically, korang akan banyak dalam lab ye sebab "makmal perubatan" and banyak kendalikan mesin sebab "teknologi". Subject yang akan dipelajari mainly pasal human. YES AKU AMBIK BIDANG NI SEBAB NAK LARI DARI PLANTS AND MATHS. Tapi maths ada lah gak sikit, simple maths je so okay lah untuk yang nak lari dari nombor tu 😉 Tapi takleh lari dari chemistry HAHAHA. Not bad lah subject chemical pathology. Ada subject transfusion medicine jugak, subject ni b...

Rumour has it. You — who barely know me, who never see me or even speak to me — believe the rumours. You don't deserve to know me like that. You don't deserve to look down at me. You just don't deserve anything when it comes to judging people you don't know. Finally i lost, lost with people's judgemental. After i endured it for so long — so long. I feel like i was drowning, trying to gasp for air, trying to reach out for something, trying to call for some help. Even though i know how to swim, how to make my body float. I just failed to do so. This time, I want someone who's willingly jump into the water and safe me. Pulling me up slowly to the shore, help me to gain my consciousness. By that time, I will thank you for your boldness And i will thank Allah for giving me another chance to live — by giving someone i need. After that you knew, You only need The Almighty Allah if you want to seek any help because He is The Giver of Peace ...

Early March 2018 which was my back-to-college day, i felt so happy bcs I reunited back with my friends and of course; my dearest housemates 💕 The excitement extended bcs finally, i can meet with my boyfriend (which is now my ex — obviously) Unfortunately, my excitement didn't stay long enough as we always fought — always, even if it's just a small matter. Day by day, I realized; you've changed. Suddenly there's no more — i love you so much — at the end of our conversations, There's no more — take care baby — to bid our goodbyes, There's no more long phone calls, No more sweet emojis, No more sweet nicknames. Just you, Ignoring my chats. Bluetick-ing my conversations. Treat me like options. Early July, we broke up. Apart again, and never had the feelings to get back. He also found his new love, im happy if he's happy 😊 I write this today bcs i feel like writing after so long phew. Why about ex? Bcs when i read back my blog, it's ...

Hello everyone!  I just finished my class and fuh tired 😐 Then macam biasalah balik bilik rehat jap. Waktu rehat tu aku srcroll lah twitter, then i read this : I can say, this thing is true. Sebab, masa sem 1. Aku rasa, aku dah jumpa orang tu (InsyaAllah) Masa sem 1, serious aku kata ibadah aku lebih. Like setiap hari lepas solat, aku baca Qur'an, then buat solat sunat qabliah, ba'diah, dhuha, tahajud. Kadang kadang kalau ada masa lebih sikit aku baca ma'thurat or majmu'an. Ikut sem jugak kot sebab sem 1 aku ada 4 subjek final je hehehe Tapi nak cakap lah yang waktu sem 1 aku banyak lah jugak cari Allah compare yang sekarang ni (Allahu 😢) Even aku banyak buat ibadah, tapi pemakaian aku masih tak sempurna. Tudung still atas dada, baju ketat sikit (sikit je tak banyak tauuu), anak tudung kekadang tak pakai kalau nak turun kafe beli makanan or waktu riadah petang, selalu carut (mama selalu ingatkan supaya kurangkan carut sebab perempuan...

aku tak pernah rasa kena marah macam ni. aku tak pernah rasa kena hina macam ni. aku tak pernah sangka semua perkataan tu keluar dari mulut kau sendiri. mungkin. kau tengah marah, serabut, sedih, kecewa. semua ada. sebab tu kau keluarkan saja kata kata tu semua. waktu kau keluarkan kata kata tu, aku terkejut. jari aku semuanya sejuk. setengah jam. sejuk tak hilang hilang. aku pun penat. penat dengan diri aku ni. aku pun pernah terfikir "kalau aku mati, mesti dah takda siapa rasa terbeban" aku pernah alami kemurungan yang berpanjangan - depression aku taknak kena lagi. aku pernah kelar tangan aku sebab stressed. aku taknak buat lagi. maafkan aku, jika kau rasa aku tak pernah memahami kau. maafkan aku, jika kau rasa aku selalu sakitkan hati kau. maafkan aku, jika kau rasa aku tak patut ada disisi kau. maafkan aku maafkan aku maafkan aku. kerana tiada apa yang mampu aku mohon selain maafkan aku 😔

Assalammualaikum and hi guys! Today i just want to share with you guys about my experiences in Perkampungan Orang Asli 😱 Here are some pictures to enjoy!  Morning view along the way to meet Orang Asli! ☁ Upon arriving, ingatkan dah sampai 😦, tapi kena jalan kat satu lorong kiri kanan pokok. Naik bukit laktu!! PANCIT 💨 Finally, we assembled at the tadika and yknow the tadika is so smol 😐 yup the population of orang asli were not that much. HA PASTU BANYAK GILA ANJING KAT PERKAMPUNGAN ORANG ASLI TU!!! Alhamdulillah dorang jenis tak liar kot sebab tak attack kitorang en and most of the orang asli is muslim but not so muslim? i hope you guys understand what i want to convey actually huhu Tapi sebab anjing jugak lah my new phone retak 💔 I was so shocked when a dog just popped out of nowhere in front of me!! 😱 So yeah thats how my shitty day started. The question is, why are we here????? TO COLLECT ORANG ASLI'S SHIT. Not that shit curse,, it ...

On 16 March 2017, MELTECH (Medical Lab Technology) club held a farewell dinner for part 4 because this is their last semester and they will go to practical. BYE 💨  PLUS Its a dinner to give award for the Dean List hehe 👄 ((Alhamdulillah i got Dean Listed in part 1! And i hope i can continue my success)) So here are some pictures of beautiful me 💖 and my classmates + senior part 4 Yes im beautiful 😜 Then, who else will say it if not ourselves right? ENJOY! 💞 Pretending to terbangkan that baju 😂  AGAIN 😂 It should be Queen right?  But im wearing King because i miss my King on that night 😭  Im playing with the props there 💗 Oh, the theme for that night was "Retro" Do i look "Retro" in this pic? HAHA. Meet my senior from STF!  Yes. We are in the same campus and faculty 😄 ((She was very fierce back then)) 😮 Meet my friend, lab partner, classmate and housemate! Gorgeous isnt she?!...

oh. sakit rupanya. ingatkan okay je. ingatkan kuat 😡 takdalah sebenarnya kuat je. sebab tu past dia. memang salah aku pun waktu tu, tu dia buat centu :') salah kau anis.

Okay this is the late post. I should post in on 26 FEB but today is already 5 MARCH huhu. But thats okay.  So here it is 😊 PEREMPUAN Kasar mana dia, ganas mana dia, dia still perempuan. Hati dia lembut jugak. Selalu je terasa and sedih tapi sebab dia taknak orang nampak dia sedih and lemah so dia act like nothing happen. Boleh jadi jugak sebaab dia dah selalu dapat sentapan hati so dia dah immune. Ada kes jugak sebab dia nak maintain imej dia yang ganas dan kasar so dia pretend dia okay and benda tu macam benda kecik je bagi dia.  Dalam kata lain, tu EGO. Dia taknak ego dia jatuh dengan nampak lemah depan orang lain. And ada jugak yang terasa and boleh heal sendiri dalam masa sehari or lima minit je. Apa apa pun semua depends kat perempuan tu jugak. Aku? Semua yang kat atas tu aku ada 😂 just depends on my mood on that current time 😊 Tapi aku selalu heal sendiri je sebab malas ah. Orang bukan tahu cane nak pujuk diri aku yang sebenarn...

LET ME TELL YOU THIS "Marry someone whose love isn't shaken by anger. Marry someone who cares about your well being, even when mad at you" I know youre not mad, youre being jealous. I KNOW. I KNOW.

KOBAR stands for Konvensyen Belia Relawan. Joined this talk with housemate. Ada Dai'e Ammar :)

First time puasa kat Penang which is jauh gila dari keluarga and not with them 😢 biasanya sahur, mama yang kejut. Biasanya sahur makan nasi dengan ayam goreng je. Now mana nak dapat ayam goreng mama 😢😢😢😢 RINDUNYA.

Bosan bakhangggggg. Sunyi sangat kat sini like tersisih gila . But still, I enjoy this life as a student!!

Register kolej - 24/5/16 Minggu Destini Siswa - 24 sampai 28 Pindah ke Bertam - 29/5 First class - 6/6/16 MDS was great and shitty at the same time. You have to eat and walk so fast Mandi sekali sehari je. Memang aku comot gila time mds hahaha tapi malam last tu best GILA! Your PM ((Pemimpin Mahasiswa)) will serve you guys videos and dance together!!! That was the best part of mds! Lepas mds boleh balik sebab ada lagi seminggu before class start. Guess what? I'm staying here Why? Price ticket so expensive walao Here are some pictures of me with new friends during mds

Start kerja 31/1/2016. Tak suka. Sebab kena tidur rumah makcik. I would love to sleep in my house bcs i can meet my parents EVERYDAY ((i know im a bit clingy)) Gaji. First gaji dapat dalam rm1200 ((i gave it to my father bcs my father lagi memerlukan)) Second gaji dapat dalam rm1050 ((sebab bulan 3 banyak ambik cuti huhu. rasanya bulan 4 pun gaji sikit -.-)) and i gave it to my mother. Third gaji which is probably my last gaji ((rasanya dapat dalam 1k je huhu)) i will give it to my father. Rasa macam nak teruskan kerja dan nak bagi duit banyak banyak kat parents. Sedih, bila bapak kau cakap dia dah takde duit. Sedih, bila kau tahu bapak kau ada hutang. Sedih, bila kau rasa macam kau lagi membebankan dorang. Itulah namanya ujian. Ujian yang Allah bagi. Face them.

They also received world performer award!!!! How can I not love BTS?!!! 😱😱😱

Mula mula hantar kawan mama dulu kat Larkin, balik Perak katanya. Pastu gi bandar kononnya nak makan, tetiba mama ajak gi dataran tengok ada apa ramai ramai tu. Rupanya ultras southern ada kat situ. Akhirnya, tapau je makanan bawak balik 😁😁     Pastu gi bandar yang kat bawah lampu tu. Saya pun tak tahu namanya apa hahah. Dan kami pun bergambar. Maklumlah, bukan selalu dapat jalan malam malam 🚶🏻          Konklusinya, saya amat bahagia pada malam tersebut 😜😜😘 Night spent very well 💞💞